On planning

Proverbs 16 (AMP)

v1. The plans of the mind and orderly thinking belong to man, but from the Lord comes the [wise] answer of the tongue.

v3. Roll your works upon the Lord [commit and trust them wholly to Him; He will cause your thoughts to become agreeable to His will, and] so shall your plans be established and succeed.

v9. A man’s mind plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps and makes them sure


Glorious Ruins

Glorious Ruins- JTH (Hillsong Live 2013)

Verse 1:
When the mountains fall
And the tempest roars
You are with me
When creation falls
Still my soul will soar
On Your mercy

I walk through the fire
With my head lifted high
And my spirit revived in Your story
I’ll look to the cross
As my failure is lost
In the light of your glorious grace

Verse 2
When the world caves in
Still my hope will cling to Your promise
When my courage ends
Let my heart find strength
In Your presence

Chorus 2
Let the ruins come to life
In the beauty of Your name
Rising up from the ashes
God forever You reign
And my soul will find refuge
In the shadow of Your wings
I will love you forever
And forever I’ll sing

Current earworm: Glorious Ruins by Hillsong.

NB: I got these lyrics by cross-referencing 2 sources from Google and from whatever I can remember hearing. The official album by Hillsong LIVE is set for release early July 2013.

by favour

If you’ve attained or achieved something through your own efforts – striving really hard, manipulating, using your own wits and smarts, then there’ll always be this fear that if you slip up, lower your guard, or make a mistake, that you could lose it all in an instant, because of what you did.

But, if you know that something you have is not borne out of any of your best efforts, but let’s say you screwed up and yet – you still got the job, you still got the promotion, you still got the guy (=P) then it’s through His favour that you’ve received it. If it’s by favour, then it doesn’t need striving or sweat to maintain. It doesn’t disappear if you screw up. You don’t have to be constantly on your toes. You can relax.

If you got it through favour, then you lose it through (lack of) favour. But His favour lasts a lifetime.

Of course, we should still be wise in our actions and decisions. So it’s not that I’m struggling to perform to maintain what I have (or to get more), but it’s being conscious that Jesus is my wisdom, and getting into the habit of flowing in that wisdom. (Because frankly, who wants to do stupid things all the time?)

I think there is a difference there.

I’m not sure why I’m writing this. Perhaps cos I feel know I have been a little unwise in some of the things I say and do. I know that it will still work out well despite these mistakes and these slips I make. But I don’t want to fall into this again and again.

Well Lord, you put your words in my mouth.

building up

Lord, help me to rely on You.
Be this firm foundation, the capstone in my life.
Let the things which can be shaken off fall away, lest they have a hold over my life.
Let things that are unshakeable remain.

I’m so glad for this blog. Reading it always encourages me 🙂 And truly, that’s what I need right now. By myself, it’s just all flaws. Weaknesses and pride. Disappointments. But that’s why we need Jesus, to take the time to appreciate and just be in His presence, casting all our cares to Him. Drawing supply from Him.

I wanna be more Supply-conscious. Here’s something from Pastor’s sermon (but I made it my own). When i go to work, just be conscious of the Supply, not the demands from my colleagues, nor the students’ demanding faces. It’s not that, “oh no! i gotta deliver a good lesson cos all these students are relying on me”, or “oh no! gotta perform well cos it’s an observation”. No longer “I’ve got to”, but… I get to.

I get to be a vessel for His supply to flow through and bless all these people.

Bathroom moments

Was thinking about some stuff while in the bathroom. Someone I know who feels that he isn’t all that talented, yet placed in a position to serve. and we see (or at least I do) the anointing flowing there. It’s really not about qualifications.

Was thinking of how we get to serve. and of how we all have our weaknesses. and I thought, “Well, God doesn’t use perfect people right?” So.. If I have it all together, if I don’t have flaws, if I’m just absolutely a perfect person — then, firstly I don’t need Jesus, and secondly, God isn’t gonna use someone like me.

Those great men in the bible – none of them were perfect. There was a compulsive liar, an egoistic young man, a harsh critic of the early church — all of them were not just used by God, but were called by Him. Even though God knew that these men would have these weaknesses and flaws.

and right then and there I just thought to myself – wow. Every time I get disgusted with myself for being weak, every time I want to condemn myself for making a mistake, every time I lose my temper – that is my qualification for His blessings AND His anointing to flow.

Scary thought.

A breath of fresh air

I’m in the library in school. Was feeling tired and worn out when I first sat down. Opened up my email. First thing I saw was a link to a youtube video. It’s my church’s song, “Forgiven Much”, recorded in the recent TBN Israel trip.

Thanks God, for the perfect timing. =)

Let us therefore labour to enter His rest.

Lord, I thank You for Your wisdom to plan in time, to do my assignments. For Your favour, Your perfect timing in my life. I thank You that I have the mind of Christ – always calm, never in a hurry. Thank You for loving me, for giving me the best gifts. *muacks!


2 Corinthians 3:2-3 (paraphrased), 4 (direct quote, NIV)

Christ himself, through the Spirit, has written on our hearts letters of recommendation, giving us confidence through Christ before God. 4Not that we are competent in ourselves to claim anything for ourselves, but our competence comes from God.

I’m not competent in myself. Certainly not. Far from it. Sometimes I feel less than adequate in the things that I’m tasked to do. Or that I know I need to do. Or even feel that I should do. Being a leader. Organising a whole bunch of different-minded people. Caring for others. Being people-oriented. Alien concepts to me. Someone once said to me, “you’re a good dictator”. But dictatorships don’t last.

I was actually looking for another verse in my bible. Speed reading and trying to find the key word. But just felt like slowing down right over at this paragraph.

I’m not gonna fear incompetence. Not that I am gonna be competent of myself, but it comes from God. It’ll be good. It’ll be okay!